Do you ever have those days, so consumed in thought that you're completely withdrawn? Driving 40 minutes to work and not knowing how you got there? Enduring another restless night's sleep full of racing thoughts, rapid breath, and blurry vision?
As I sit waiting for the IVF process to begin, waiting for a my chance to start a family, I watch and listen to everyone around me starting or continuing their journey. As two of my siblings have begun their families, I I sit in silence realizing mine should've begun years ago. Yet, here I am.
Waiting.
Congratulating.
Encouraging.
Listening.
I hide behind a smile, "I'm fine thanks," and I continue waiting.
Until I'm alone and everything consumes me at once. Until I breakdown crying for "no reason." Until I'm withdrawn from the days that pass me by.
Just waiting.
My update- We did meet with our IVF doctor. We have a few more appointments that need to be taken care of before we are able to begin our journey. I'm hoping the process will begin in about a month (mid April or early May.)
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