A Peek into my Thoughts

As I wait for our next cycle, I'm not sure if it does any good to be hopeful. I've turned more to praying in my day-to-day. I pray for God to take away my anxieties and my fears. I pray, of course, for some success. 
I have to watch my thought process on a daily basis. I'm worried about finances, I'm worried about being too selfish, I'm worried about my mental health--and in turn, my physical health. 

Why is this happening to us? It's just not fair that so many people don't have to worry about this. So many people can conceive naturally and easily! Yet here we are, dropping thousands on surgeries and fertility cycles. My fear is what's to come. I know we are good people--as silly as it sounds. I spend my days attending my students' soccer games and dance recitals, tutoring after school, going to Bible study... so where have I gone wrong? 

Moving forward, my goal is to keep this site updated. It offers me a place to write my current thoughts and/or prayers.